Times going by...

Today has been hard for me. It's starting to hit me and it's very hard for me to swallow. I suppose something in me feels ready to deal with what happened otherwise it wouldn't be on my mind. If things were that bad for you luv, why didn't you talk to me? You always talked to me about everything, why not this time? Of course everyone and their brother has an opinion of what happened or what didn't happen. I wish there was some way to know for sure. I have so many questions...that day was so odd. Something kept me away from you that day. I was going to come upstairs and do our walk around the property but didn't and when Richard asked me to look for you something kept me away from that hill. I don't know why that happened that way.