Bad news

My fellow Greenthumber is gone. She passed away Oct. 14th 2010. I still can't believe that she is gone and I miss her terribly. Right now I would be ok with her walking in the door and laughing at how sad I became when she was gone....anything as long as she is back. My wonderful tree hugging friend sadly will not be walking through my door ever again. I have to get used to the idea, but still can't make myself accept it. Instead of making myself deal with it, I keep myself busy...work myself hard. Anne would be proud of me right now. She would be proud except for I can't say goodbye to her. Fuck I want my friend back...